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Do you think you do this on purpose? I know men and women who seek things/people in life that they can't have just to drive themselves nuts. I wonder, because it has vestiges of it...the way you talk about your infatuation.
Someone/something you can have too easily is "eh, so what." Someone/something you can't have fuels the fire of desire, anger, or any other emotion you care to insert that keeps you juiced.
Is this what this is about?
You were critical about a person you could have (and you could be TOTALLY right...a total dweeb...I could hear the obnoxious accent you described already)
Yet, you rave about this person you can't have. And, your last quote, why can't you have access to "them"?... sounds so definitive.
Given that you love movies about Italian issues, have you seen "Mambo Italiano?" Is your life anything like that? A little different than what I expected (though I knew the general plot) and ALL of the characters were a little too much, too cliche and melodramatic as hell. (The only one I understood, in "context," was Yolanda - she was his live-for-the-moment, no bullshit aunt who sold out and did all the right things you are supposed to do, on the traditional Italian track, only to find she was miserable and then took a "drastic" step. I only understand her because there are so many people from that background who buy into the program because it's what's expected).
At any rate, back to you, is this the deal, because you agonize way too much? You remind me of so many high-drama Italians I know! :AH-HA_wink: :lol:
"Guido 3,000 miles away."