well guys i know you thought youd heard tha last

[mute]

id like to first off apologize to anyone who wanted me dead . . . i got close but no cigar . . . and then tell the rest of you to thank me for coming back . . .

explination of behavior goes as follows

a while back i ws subject to a sinus infection that was not of the usual type . . . my body temperature is usually at a slightly tepid 99.8 so fevers virtually do not occur in my body . . . infections are hard to start . . . but so i did not develop a fever at all instead the infection went unchecked and spread through my nasal passages causing meningitis and spreading the infection to my brain. . . again it was left unchecked and no doctors visits were in order because although i was then cranky i was not insane so that change was attributed to stress at school and the physical symptoms were attributed to a head cold . . . again no treatment . . . as the infection continued my body tried other ways to rid itself of the infection without the use of raising the body temperature and as the infection stayed in my brain my body created a chemical imbalance in the frontal lobes to try to correct the infection on the brain surface . . . this chemical imbalance is typically known as bipolar disorder . . . NO WAIT!!! it gets better . . . that was no the only problem . . . i also developed a problem called vertigo where a complete loss of balance was in order very often and in very inoppurtune monents . . . NO WAIT thats not bad enough the bipolar disorder continued and paranoid psychosis developed because of the extended damage done to my brain . . . whew

im on 4 different kinds of antibiotics for the next month and a half and 2 herbal remedies that will get rid of the psychiological effects after a hearty 6 months and in the meantime control the symptoms

yes i was insane and the flow of $h!ty behavior was not excusable but i can use this as a pretty good excuse

sorry to anyone i disturbed, insulted, disrespected, etc mostly confused im sure

thank you to those who understand and still think im a fine piece of ass

and just fyi/ ps

i did get to the point where i was a danger to the people around me and i ended up hitting my girlfriend in the face and having a mental breakdown . . . so this isnt fake and online it was real

Edited November 10, 2006 by mute

[Satty]

Fly was wrong, that thread didn't outlive its usefulness. Wonder if anybody cares.

[the_yellow_dart]

You think you're going to get any sympathy around here for admitting that you beat a woman? I disowned one of my best friends for doing the same.

[Croc]

Fly was wrong, that thread didn't outlive its usefulness.  Wonder if anybody cares.

214083[/snapback]

EXACTLY!

[ocnblu]

Well mute, I certainly hope you can get back to normal soon. As far as your standing at C&G goes, the only thing to do is resume posting and see how it goes.

[daves87rs]

Well mute, I certainly hope you can get back to normal soon.  As far as your standing at C&G goes, the only thing to do is resume posting and see how it goes.

214099[/snapback]

Agreed.

Though I do have to say the body makes people do some strange things...

[mute]

i was just apologizing not asking for sympathy but at least some understanding . . . its okay if you dont . . . nothing new to me and nothing new to you either im sure

not trying to be a drama queen like i was before but i figure to try apologize to everyone at once instead of sending PM's would be better

im not good at public apologies i guess . . . meh

[Cory Wolfe]

Well, Mute... I'll have to agree with Ocn. Other than that, I don't have anything to say.

[the_yellow_dart]

i was just apologizing not asking for sympathy but at least some understanding . . . its okay if you dont . . . nothing new to me and nothing new to you either im sure

not trying to be a drama queen like i was before but i figure to try apologize to everyone at once instead of sending PM's would be better

im not good at public apologies i guess . . . meh

214232[/snapback]

Don't be so quick to judge. Personally I've never seen any true reason to get pissed off at anyone on this site, you included. Maybe what Satty said about not being emotionally connected because it's the internet holds some truth.

So, I don't hold a grudge, and I certainly don't object to you returning. I'm just saying that maybe talking about hitting your girlfriend wasn't the best choice for a first return post.

My friend was of sane mind when he threw his girlfriend across the room into a door. That deserved, in my mind, his complete disappearance from my life. Your situation is different, but it still doesn't sound good.

Is the girl still with you?

[Croc]

Or even better yet, just come back and post instead of creating a thread about "TADA! I'M BAAAAAACK!!"

Because to quote Wet Hot American Summer:

[Mallrat]NOBODY CARES![/Mallrat]

[deftonesfan867]

Boy i've missed alot havent I??

[Chris_Doane]

Boy i've missed alot havent I?? 

214395[/snapback]

No.

[deftonesfan867]

No.

214404[/snapback]

I havent missed anything worth missing have I.

[mute]

just saying sorry to those i was rude to . . . sorry i did?

i was very much not of a sane mind . . . i actually just flicked her in the face but because of the circumstance it is very much hitting . . . it was no good . . . she is no longer with me of my own choice . . . not hers

[z28luvr01]

Locking this, at mute's request.